Saturday, July 21, 2012

I'm Exhausted. (and I sneak in vacation photos while I'm at it)

I am so tired.

Getting rid of an arsenal of prescription drugs has its pitfalls in some ways -- it can wreak havoc on your system.  At first, I had tons of energy, but right now, I feel overwhelmed and exhausted.

And I'm going to let that be OK for now.

Rick and I watched a movie both yesterday and today so I could rest ("J.Edgar" and "Letters From Iwo Jima", both wonderful).  I finished two books but I missed my book club brunch this morning and was really upset about that but the weather and I guess the travel gave me a killer migraine and I just NOW was able to get upright.

I feel like this fish from the Shedd Aquarium.  Grumpy and crusty.

I took this through glass and can't believe how well it turned out.

Sometimes it's easy to dwell on the bad stuff.  The exhaustion, the list of things that keeps getting pushed off, the web updates that aren't getting done, the jewelry that's not being made.  But I'm human.  Not Super Woman, and even those who play Super Woman in real life AND on TV have bad days -- they're just better at hiding it (which is why they wear a cape).  And which is why they're Super and I am just Woman.

staring out the trolley window in Chicago

The important things this week have been spending a huge amount of time with my son and husband.  The trip to Chicago, while 100+ degrees each day, was worth every second.  We had the TV on for about half an hour the entire trip.  Zack tried lettuce for the first time (HUGE bonus for a kid with severe food issues).  He was a dream rolling with things, enjoyed the museums and the Ferris wheel (which had been an iffy proposition at first) and was an absolute joy. 

making the kidlet smile is the only thing that matters.

So I'm slowly packaging replacement Bead Soups to send out, packing up prizes you've won, supervising thank you notes (you guys at have made me cry and Zack thrilled with your coin collections you've sent him.)  I'm praying special parts I ordered for my first Bead Soup Blog Party® reveal arrive on time.   And I'm mourning my friend whose death I just found out about.  More on that later as I share photos with the Air Force family, the classmates who loved him, too.  I know that's affecting me badly.

I learned of John's death before we left for Chicago, and when I saw a flag, I thought of him.

So right now, life is a bit like a Ferris wheel -- it goes round and round and round, and when you're at the top, it's exhilarating, but when you're at the bottom, you feel the weight of all that machinery above you and you just want to get back on the ride and reach for the sky again.

The lesson in all this -- figure out what's important first.  Give yourself the break your body tells you you need.  Do what you enjoy.  Love your family and friends.

And always enjoy the view from the Ferris Wheel, no matter what.


Lori Anderson creates jewelry and bead kits as well as collaborative mixed media art with her son, Zack.  Visit her shops by clicking here.  She is also the creator of the Bead Soup Blog Party®   and author of the book Bead Soup.

Join her at the Facebook group Bead Soup Cafe for bead chat, swaps, challenges, and lots of eye candy!


  1. Happy to hear you has such a blast on your vacation! Hope you're feeling better (and don't stress too much over those special components :))

  2. I really enjoy this life lesson you've shared with all of us today because it's something I still struggle with.

    When I'm well, I want to do it all and I push myself and push myself until I end up backtracking.

    It's something I definitely need to work on!

  3. Lori, I soooo sympathize with not being "super woman". I know many women close to me who accomplish so much more in a day than I do. But I have learned to accept that I am me and they are them, and I get done what needs to be done :)

  4. Beautiful photographs as always. I am glad you and your family had a vacation this year. I bet it was fun. I love the photo of Zach. So sweet. I have not forgitten the cards for him. I have not made it to the storage unit with it. I love the jump rings. Hope to see more photographs. :) Have a wonderful night.

  5. Very sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. Grateful you had a fun family vacation. Your ferris wheel analogy helps to put things in proper perspective.

  6. Wonderful trip Lori - Isn't Chicago just grand?....I love that place. I also wanted to tell you I think I've found a fun book for Zack - check my blog - you and he will love Stubby Pencil Noodle Head. I even think it's worthy of a "Lori review". I am having full replacement knee surgery on July 30 - Nothing like taking it right to the edge of the blog hop. I'll be ready! I'm taking the computer to the hospital too! I'll make that post before I leave because who knows what I might write while I'm "under the influence". LOL

  7. Lori, when I was younger, my mother used to tell me all the time "you're going to end up like me!" because of my non-stop running lifestyle (supermom, volunteering, working full time, etc.) She lived to her mid 80's bless her heart, but here I sit at 56 watching my health deteriorate with EVERY single ailment she had, her prediction coming true unfortunately years too early. No biggie, I'll live and life is good.

    My point is to YOU to yes, slow down and allow your body to recoup. Enjoy Zack & the hubster, keep your fans happy by blogging cuz as long as they (we) have your presence occasionally, we're happy - but don't push it. We need you around to envy and hope to have your talents for a long time. If you burn yourself out - or worse - THEN you'll let us down!

    Getting off the meds you want to be off of is your only priority right now. Make it so ;), stay strong.

  8. So glad you had a wonderful holiday Peter & I have not had a holiday together for 20 years,he is not a holiday person. Lara and I go on holiday together though although not since 2009. Great to hear all that medication is being dumped at last, you can do it and it will get better it may just take a little time!
    Take care

  9. Anonymous1:36 PM

    I am so glad that you had a nice trip to Chicago. So sorry, for the loss of your friend. I truly hope you are feeling better soon!

  10. so glad you had a wonderful vacation with your two special people! sounds like you are on that circling train again, pal... i am on the seat behind you... health issues, etc... stay strong... you are our "leader..." we stand tall behind you. sending love and good feelings your way!


  11. We're all just women, and super in our own ways. Congrats to Zach for trying a new food! My 8 yr old great-nephew does not like fruits and vegetables at all, although he will politely taste what's served at school. And my 21-year old son still won't touch squash of any kind.

  12. Oh Lori, I do sympathize with your loss of energy, I once was a super MOM believe me it does get better. I too lost a friend this week. he was such a kind soft spoken and gentel man.
    Be blessed to be a blessing


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