Sunday, January 25, 2015

Changing Faces

To show how temperamental Lyme and Babesia are, read back a few posts on Facebook, and you'll see I felt awful, but one day felt normal. At 8pm that "normal" night, I crashed.This is me today. No filter, no makeup, haven't got the strength for a shower yet. I traded my shower spoon for a "read to Zack" spoon. Great trade-off.


So another photo for me to reflect on and compare as time goes on (I started posting these on my Facebook page) so I can see improvements or regressions and see if I can track the triggers. I will say that stress is a horrible trigger, and the past few days Rick and I got a lot unexpectedly dumped in our lap from outside shenanigans (seriously, we've met kids better behaved and with a greater sense of right and wrong than what we've experienced by adults these few days), but we're already moving on as best we can.

So, here I am, looking far different than from yesterday's video (and thanks for the comments and suggestions..a separate web cam and microphone are on order.



Today we cut one antibiotic to half dose and cycle from the new one to another one, while one stays the same. This means the week could be rough with herx reactions, which are in a nutshell, when bacteria get overloaded and killed and release toxins faster than my body can handle. While it's horribly uncomfortable (I screamed once, to the amusement of the cats, last time it happened), but cycling drugs will hopefully result in mass bacterial confusion and they'll die, I will avoid a PICC line or pump, and I'll have even more good hours and more good days. It's a decent trade off.


Anyway. This may interest you or not, this photo journey I'm on now, but I challenge you to do it, too, whether you're sick or healthy. Do it for a year, take a shot every few days (regardless of how you feel) and look back and see. Humans are dynamic, wonderful things with a capacity to fight. It's an empowering feeling (for me) to have the  bravery to show the bloated ugly. I don't have control of much, but this, I do.


I'm winning, regardless of what I feel like today.





Lori Anderson creates jewelry and bead kits as well as collaborative mixed media art with her son, Zack. Visit her shops by clicking on the right side bar of this blog (please and thank you!). She is also the creator of the Bead Soup Blog Party® and author of the book "Bead Soup" via Kalmbach Publishing

14 comments:

  1. What a great post Lori! I am tempted to take you up on the challenge, but absolutely hate getting my picture taken. This would be an extreme step out of my comfort zone. I hope and pray you are feeling better soon, and that some of these measures you are taking start to work miracles on your health. :)

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  2. Kudos to you for sticking with your plan and posting pics! Keeping you in my prayers during this transition!!!

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  3. This is really good stuff, Lori.. thanks for letting us into your life. I hope the cycling works for you, I *still* have the scars from my PICC line back in 2004.

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  4. Red, I still have my PICC line scar and it's been about nine year s, I think?

    Molly, you're beautiful. I DESPISE seeing photos of me now because I no longer can find the thinner, more attractive girl of my 20's and early 30's. But I needed to make this leap of faith.

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  5. You are BEAUTIFUL!! I understand about the pain and problems, and that some days you don't FEEL beautiful, but you are. It shows in your love for your son, your amazing creations and your dedication to all of us....simply, BEAUTIFUL!! ~KM

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  6. You are AMAZING! You are a hero and an inspiration! I dont think anyone really knows just how sick yoj really are but Thank You for these oosts and you journey! Hugs Love and Prayers daily my friend!

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  7. Oh sweet ,and beautiful Lori I am so amazed at your courage. This is a wonderful post. I don't think Imwill take you up on the challenge with all my age spots and wrinkles which I could not see until I had cataract surgery :-) you are really on the mend. I pray for you several times a day. Be blessed to be a blessing

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  8. I've been trying to take a selfie on the days I have my hair cut (my one good hair day).

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  9. Mucho animo !!!!!!!!

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  10. Hi Lori, Glad you and Zack had a reading time (good spoon choice). It is brave of you to take pics even when you don't feel well. I think you are beautiful even with no makeup or shower. I appreciate you sharing yourself. A make terrible faces when cameras come out so I am not going to take up your challenge.

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  11. I see a beautiful woman who knows which spoon is more valuable.

    I am going to take you up on the challenge though I doubt that I will ever post them. I am thinking however that I would like a record for myself so I am going to take a selfie every Monday.

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  12. I would hardly call you bloated ugly. I would call you beautifully brave. Keep on fighting for the prize.

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  13. Another encouraging post! Thanks Lori... I copied it and sent it to a friend who I share articles that you have written from time to time. You are helping so many people! I don't even think you realize how much! (or maybe you do) :)

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  14. Lori, you are doing well by sharing the ups and downs of your life and also not afraid to show your pictures of not so good days. We all aspire to look the very best on social media but it takes lots of courage to show our real selves in day today life. As I always say, more power to you!

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