So! I have been sitting here in front of this screen for twenty minutes trying to write what is on my mind but I keep getting side-tracked. I am pretty transparent here on my blog but if you could truly see what's going on in my head and my life lately, you'd probably offer me a stiff drink and a Xanax.
The craft show went wonderfully, which was important to me on various levels. I also got to have dinner with friends Friday night -- also very important to me on various levels. I managed to keep my energy going until I got home Sunday night and then I crashed ... but I decided it was OK to crash.
Things just never want to settle down, though.
Yesterday, Rick's dad had a massive heart attack. As I write this, he's still in CCU but awake and responsive, but there's a long road ahead of him.
Beads and just about everything else pale in comparison to what's been going on with the friends and family I love. Honestly, right now I feel like packing up everything on my bead table and taking it to Goodwill. Behind the scenes, I've been trying to repair a lot of things with myself, and I feel like for every step forward I take, I'm taking two backwards. Not sure how much more I can manage. I used to think I was so strong and lately all I want to do is hide under the covers.
Not entirely sure what I'm rambling about here other than to say this has been such a rough year, especially the past few months, and right now I'm handling all the insanity the only way I know how -- by writing about it.
Lori Anderson creates jewelry and bead kits as well as collaborative mixed media art with her son, Zack. Visit her shops by clicking here. She is also the creator of the Bead Soup Blog Party® and author of the book Bead Soup.