Thank you for the kind words and many emails you all sent to me. We shared a lot of history with each other and it was like I thought -- almost everyone feels miserable sometimes.
I'm making some changes in my life. After many tearful discussions this weekend with my husband, I've decided that as of December 6th, when my manuscript is due to the publisher, life starts over. Life can start over many different times during your life, did you know that?
One of the things I did tonight was resign from Art Bead Scene. I do love to write, but I feel I need to focus on some different types of writing. I hope to share with you what I would have shared there, and I hope to make my voice heard on some other crafting venues. I have plans to write an eBook. I also fully intend on starting my memoirs. So next year will be full of writing exploration.
I also intend to do some soul-searching, probably with some help. There's nothing at all wrong with admitting you need some help now and then, and it doesn't mean my husband, who is so dear to me, isn't helping me. But it's been a while. Time for a tune-up.
If I can swing it, I would love to spend a weekend at a yoga/pilates/spa retreat. I used to be in such good shape. Round is indeed a shape but I hate it and December 7th, things will change. I used to be an aerobics instructor and a personal trainer so it's not like I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm also going to learn to say "no" more often. That doesn't mean I won't be a nice person anymore. It just means I won't overextend myself. I love to keep my calendar full, but decorating and cleaning the house is going to take the place of some other things.
Life is supposed to be lived, and right now I feel as fragile as a soap bubble. But I have a date circled on my calendar -- December 6th -- that gives me something to look towards. I'm lucky in that. There were years when there seemed to be no end at all in sight.
Thanks for sticking with me, and I hope to bring you joy in the coming year.
Lori Anderson creates jewelry for her web site, Lori Anderson Designs, and wrote the blog An Artist's Year Off. She's also a contributor to Art Bead Scene and is the creator of the Bead Soup Blog Party.